♥ Useless

keep thinking and thinking ...
should i go band ?
wednesday when sit in the bus ..
i told Lin ..
if this concert i didn't perform ..
i will quit .. * damn stupid !
hais ..
don't know how now !
quit ler can join other activities ..
can join outside miaa band ..
won't been scolded also !
but ..
i want with my darlinggq !
i can't leave him !
what should i do ..
and stay in a no target d band ..
useless !

♥ LOL`

Hey !

long time didn't update bloggie lerh ..

wee ..

today damn unlucky ...

morning go up class lerh ..

then darlinggq wait outside class ..

wanna took his project ..

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then walk up together !

practisee ... xD

after that tyok back class lerh ..

boring !

second period ...

Maths x)

stomach suddenly pain !

OhhMyyGoosshh !

pain till want die lerh ..

i thought just a while ..

but not !

until recess time still pain ..

talk also pain .. =(

arrgghh !

actually want back home ..

but can't !

then go kh room lerh ..

can't tahan !

after a while tyok nothing lerh ..

LUCKILY !

almost wanna die lerh ..

if continue pain !

darlinggq got jazz band ..

hais ..

now just 3:25 p.m. ..

still got 1 hour 05 minutes ..

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♥ Welcome ; Bye

Tomorrow take car ler ...
then old car will put there ..
drive new car back ..
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damn excited now !
auto door .. xD
i'm waiting and waiting ..
tomorrow afternoon ..
welcome honda freed !
bye honda civic ..

♥ I'm unnecessary

When i had a house ?

When i had a family ?

When i had a mother ?

When i had a father ?

When i had a sister ?

When i had two brothers ?

When ?

how come i can't feel it warm ?

i just feel that ..

i hate them !

i can't live with them ..

i have friends ..

i have best friends ..
i have band friends ..
i have classmates ..
i have tuition's friends ..
i have many many more friends ..
i care those who care me ...
i didn't care those who hate me ..


friends ; family 
i choose friends ..
i really can't balance between family and friends ..
i love my friends so much ;
but i hate my family so much !
lose balance !


what can i do ?
yesterday ..
when i go in room ..
they all at my mother's room ...
they play ..
laugh ..
but i didn't care ..
today morning ...
i also stay in my room ..
they also laugh together ..
play together ...
except me ..
i think ..
i'm unnecessary !

♥ 家

我再也無法找回家的感覺..
它對我開來說,
已經每沒有意義了..
我感受不到我要的溫馨,
感受不到我要的幸福,
甚至快樂的! 
就在家裏一點也不快樂 !
總覺得我與家的距離,
甚至家人.. 
越來越遠了 ! 
是這個家容納不了我, 
還是我的心容納不了它?
可能是我！
我无法容纳他们？
家人？
不如我的朋友！
朋友会关心我，
家人不会！
朋友了解我，
家人不！
我……
找不到回家的理由！
每天都不想回家，
在家里，
就想尽方法不留在家！
我可以做什么？
What can i do ?