♥ I'm unnecessary

When i had a house ?

When i had a family ?

When i had a mother ?

When i had a father ?

When i had a sister ?

When i had two brothers ?

When ?

how come i can't feel it warm ?

i just feel that ..

i hate them !

i can't live with them ..

i have friends ..

i have best friends ..
i have band friends ..
i have classmates ..
i have tuition's friends ..
i have many many more friends ..
i care those who care me ...
i didn't care those who hate me ..


friends ; family 
i choose friends ..
i really can't balance between family and friends ..
i love my friends so much ;
but i hate my family so much !
lose balance !


what can i do ?
yesterday ..
when i go in room ..
they all at my mother's room ...
they play ..
laugh ..
but i didn't care ..
today morning ...
i also stay in my room ..
they also laugh together ..
play together ...
except me ..
i think ..
i'm unnecessary !